Today on my way to the KFC for a Double Crunch Fire Burger I saw this bald, white man who looked broadly Eastern European walk with a bottle of alcohol in his hand. I thought he might hit me but he didn't.
On my way back I noticed ruckus down the street, and when I came there there seemed to have been battery assault against a hobo. I tried running after the assailant after it seemed nobody had recorded the vehicle registration plate, but unfortunately that was impossible.
I called the police and after waiting for them, they still didn't show up. Two more hobos speaking a variation of German and other languages and dialects showed up, one a short Indian looking guy and the other a Portuguese guy with blue eyes and a bike and a cut on his forehead.
We went to the police station and I had to ward off stares. Eventually the cop took my information and video footage and let me go, there was this other guy with a headwound and blood coming out, working in the harbour who came in who talked about his older daughter wanting to be in the airforce and his younger daughter as a nurse. He was pretty funny, and the other policeman who looked sharp like a cream of the crop Waffen-SS shock trooper laughed with him.
That's about it, a pretty eventful day.
Maybe I should become a policeman after studying Informatica/Computer Science.
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>How hard is mathematics in practice once you get over the hurdle of passing exams?
How hard? We barely do maths anymore, it really was only a tool to get rid of about 60% of the students. Disgusting.
Unless you're a genius, the only thing you can really do with maths is doing exercises over and over so you learn the patterns to pass the exams.
>How fun is compsci?
Sometimes it is interesting, most of the time however it's don't. A lot of the stuff you learn will not even be useful for your future job. The random coding projects I do since I was maybe 12 years old helped me 10 times more in my side job than my education.
If you ask me what I can do now what I could not do before, it is getting a job in one year when I have my papers.
The people also tend to be introverted Nerds that are simply not a lot of fun to hang out with. And those who aren't nerds mostly picked up IT because they heard about the "great chances" you will have as a computer engineer. They all suck dick and get frustrated about the easiest coding projects.
>How hard? We barely do maths anymore, it really was only a tool to get rid of about 60% of the students. Disgusting.
Damn... how early did they start filtering?
>Unless you're a genius, the only thing you can really do with maths is doing exercises over and over so you learn the patterns to pass the exams.
DAMNIT
I have not graduated high school with mathematics. NL can be weird like that. There are courses I can take to catch up but this means I will have a very stressful year ahead of me if I study computer science.
>The people also tend to be introverted Nerds that are simply not a lot of fun to hang out with. And those who aren't nerds mostly picked up IT because they heard about the "great chances" you will have as a computer engineer. They all suck dick and get frustrated about the easiest coding projects.
Why aren't nerds interesting? Personally my uncle is a great guy and compsci professor and this manga cafe I go to has a lot of compsci autists. They're great company.
All in all I am scared but seeing as I am tired of being a layman retard who can't into technical jobs because he's cucked out of of maths I think I will take on the goliath of my mathematicsphobia and lack of knowledge.
Do you think at age 19 one can be successful at getting an adequate understanding of mathematics at realschule exam level if he wants to get into CompSci in September and is willing to put down money? Or should I look at something else in your opinion?
>Damn... how early did they start filtering?
First year, obviously. And they stopped after the first year.
>Why aren't nerds interesting?
It is not that nerds are not interesting, I'm also from a "nerd family".
What I meant is that at least for me, these people that can't do anything else but talking about their video games or what so ever are boring.
In my free time I also want to make music and take psychedelics, not only discuss the new path of exiles patch notes.
>Do you think at age 19 one can be successful at getting an adequate understanding of mathematics
I was also 19 when I started in Uni.
If you are the NL guy who already read Mishima's Sailor, then I am pretty sure that you're a lot smarter than me, so don't worry.
You may think that reading books may strengthen one's humanity and feelings of belonging, and to a certain extent this is true.
I just finished watching the movie Spree and aside from a few problems I could recognise myself in the main character.
Let's charter or maybe diagnose the illness of Hollywood tackling of social issues which aren't apparent to 'successful' people.
Intelligent men who struggle with finding objectivity in the world can be devoured by nihilism and become little automatons of chaos whirring from place to place looking to depower.
Personally, I want to depower by becoming a civil servant. I think that's the closest path to bringing this ride to a good end. To have a little bit of money and to be able to raise a family.
However, what people are not understanding is that these sentiments of mine are mostly because of the degree of structure of the Dutch constitutional monarchy.
Since the 90s, feminisation has been regent. The smoothing over of sharp objectives that could give rise to absurdities like Nazism, Leftism and Islamism when taken to their logical conclusion and the installation of boundaries that people can't cross without kicking up a lot of dirt.
Yet this body of manhood kept stirring like a dead corpse pierced with jump cables. Countless incidents followed and countless of empathic films were made in response, often made by people who had 'made it'. People who have 'made it' cannot and will not understand that which people who have not 'made it' posit because it forms an existential threat.
People who recognise the boundaries for what they're worth are more likely to end up not making it, or killing themselves. As such a lot of influential authors whose literature is being read all around end up killing themselves. Japanese authors who sense the collapse of their homogeneity and the pristine distinction between oriental and occidental, American authors who are overwhelmed by the totalitarianism of neoliberalism.
Short anecdote in-between: Last year, I read The Sailor Who Fell From Grace With the Sea by Yukio Mishima. It is a very masculine book, the woman is in some ways scrutinised and the son is seen as an anti-hero with the sailor as the fateful Hercules who dies as a result of circumstance and not of one great challenge.
The female teacher hailing from Hungary didn't like the book after teaching it to the class. We would read The Great Gatsby and Alice Munro's short stories and they were praised incredibly despite regarding issues irrelevant to the male body or to the present times, but when people read TSWFFGWTS it was to be pulled from curriculum the year after.
That is because no matter what one's intelligence is, they cannot understand that which isn't corporeally theirs. Fascism is male. Feminism is female.
My initial feelings of contempt that a high school class was reading the same book I was have largely faded. Not entirely, ofcourse.
However I have come to an understanding: everyone will interpret from a work of literature, anything they wish. Language is very difficult for a lot of people and rather than a single, objective thing connecting people of 55 IQs to people of 180 IQs it is more like a lake where one person will swim across it with ease while another will sink to the depths and become tangled in the weeds.
At first glance, analysing the biological fascism that is inherent to men isn't difficult. I will go to an open day of an inner-city art school with my friend and the graphic design department will have, among various 'pepe' or terrorist attack Mandela Effect exhibitions one exhibition regarding school shooters and their backgrounds. I ofcourse knew all about it, surprising the art hoe who presented the project. I swear her voice hid contempt.
The reality is that language only means something when it is embodied. Someone who has read Nietzsche and someone who has watched a YouTube video on Nietzsche can say the exact same thing, word for word and the person who has read him will have said it better.
As such all of these observable things; Pepe, MDE, Mike Ma, Yotsuba culture, school shooters, ISIL, Breitbart can always be explained in excellent ways, however the spirit lacks and there always seems to be missing a set piece, something that will really hammer it in.
Something like this could be the suicide of the author, or their alcoholism or some other object which shows that there is a boundary crossed which allows the author to not just peek, but embody this feeling for acceleration, for pushing the sharp edges over the seminal membrane and introducing a new reaction, a new revolution.
However Fight Club's author is gay and Spree's director is a bald male feminist.
What I am trying to say is that there is a universal identity crisis among intelligent men and that this goes beyond scientific observation. I believe that in the years to come there will be social seismic activity the likes of which we've seen before in 2011, in 1977 and in 1942.
Consider this post a confession; literature betrays the status quo, if autistic men do not depower they will blow a fuse, Hollywood doesn't get it, sociologists do not get it, politicians are living in fairyland and I am a hedgehog suffocating in a pink condom.
TL;DR : We're DOOMED
>Personally, I want to depower by becoming a civil servant. I think that's the closest path to bringing this ride to a good end. To have a little bit of money and to be able to raise a family.
Sames, however I am not sure if this will make me happy.
I am very scared to commit to the cozy countryside life of a civil servant with a wife and two kids because I might just die of boredom.
I want to have done something meaningful in my life, something that people can remember me for even after I died, something like writing music or a book that more than just fifty people will listen to, read and remember.
It is sad that less and less young people play musical instruments here, I hope that once I am old there will still be an orchestra close to me that I can be a part of.
Also
>Mishima Yukio
based
I read The Temple of the Golden Pavilion by him when I was 19 simply because he was famous but I can proudly admit that I feel like I did not even understand half of what he was trying to say.
Together with Kafka on the shore and some others, it is one of the books I plan to reread in a few years when I am hopefully a little wiser.
The recommended start to Mishima is Sailor. What did you think of Temple? I've been meaning to read it for a while.
As for legacy to this world, I will leave children if I have them. I want a conventional lifestyle, most great people had civil servants and other unimportant people parenting them.
I am reading Plato's Republic now and in the discussion with Keifalos it's mentioned how rich people are 'good' because they do not have debts to anyone.
I have debts to society that I must repay but once I have material comfort my children will only have a moral debt to the world, one that everyone carries.
Sometimes it sounds like someone's walking in my house or I'll hear a woman's voice in the shower and it freaks me the fuck out.
>What I am trying to say is that there is a universal identity crisis among intelligent men
Ah, so that's what you were trying to say. I dare say that the man's tower looks far more stable and efficient than the women's tower. Many of the men who built it are now disposable of course and that is a problem none of the women have. Some of them might decide to write a book and hang themselves.
someone should conduct an experiment,
each dream dreamed by human test subject, should be documented and put into some database or wherever it can be easily found later
then each time a test subject having a deja vu feeling, researchers quickly search any matches in dreams database to find out if the feel of recurrence given by event the test subject is experiencing right now justified (was dream of before) or not (false sense)
thus deciding if the suspicions of some humans about the world surrounding us is a simulation are justified or not
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>I dont understand how justification of deja vu ties into the simulation theory
it's don't actually,
but if humans can predict some tiny bits of their future in their dreams, there might be some explanation
and the explanation might also hint towards simulation theory or might not, i just like the idea of the world being a simulation
>I personally believe I have dreams that "predict" future events.
>I put predict into brackets because they don't have practical value
are those just brief "images" that doesn't give any context to them, and may appear randomly within a dream completely untied from a dream's plot?
like you see yourself doing something for a second or two,
and then, months will pass, and all of a sudden you do something and find what you see before you oddly familiar
???
Nah, it's not brief images in an unrelated dream. The whole dream is a certain situation. And when I realize months later that I had dreamt what is happening before, it's not just feeling kinda similar. It is the same situation with multiple identifyable factors. For example:
One summer break between switching schools I was dreaming about being in a classroom. I had never seen this classroom before. The tables were arranged a certain way, I was sitting in a certain place, I could see outside the window that is was next to a hillside and I remember sitting a hot blonde girl sitting in front of me. At the time I thought it was strange to dream about being in a classroom I had never seen instead of the classrooms I was used to. Months later, I realized I was in the exact same situation as in the dream.
Other times the dreams might have a piece of conversation in them. I dream someone saying certain things to me and then me responding. When I later on realize I had dreamt this situation, one time I consciously decided replying with something else and thereby changed the course of the conversation that I had experienced in a dream. It was now different.
You see, when I hear deja vus described it seems really simple to me. "Oh I saw this guy and he looked kinda familiar." or something like that. But with my dreams I sometimes notice "well that was an odd dream", but I obviously don't know it will be predictive. I forget about it for a while and then the situation happens and I immediately remember all the details that are the same.
Posted on 4channel's /int/'s Dutch general nederdraad that I was going to shoot up the Dam [big plaza with a big WWII memorial in the capital] and the parliament [in a different city]. It was jokingly but then I got banned for violating US or local law.
I called the police a few moments after and after she got all of my identifying information she said she'd make a note that I have no intention of shooting up the Dam or the parliament and that I was stupid.
I am shitting myself, all articles I've read about dumb teens doing this mention some sort of punishment. I was just getting on the right track and I might get my asshole gaped by the machinations of the State.
FUCK
BONUS ANECDOTE:
Went to masturbate at the fertility clinic in Zwolle today. I really liked the city and I am thinking of moving there if I DON'T GET FUCKING JAILTIME.
Really uncomfortable that the exit led me past all of the couples in waiting areas.
On the train back this ethnic Dutch girl kept trying to get me to notice her, and subsequently I did the same. I'd look at this little brown child because half he was cute and half I wanted to seem fatherly to her. I was reading some of Kobo Abe's The Box Man [almost finished] and she grabbed a book aswell but almost immediately put her phone in between the book and herself. Made me think she tried to grab my attention.
After I while I tried to think of ways to court her but I didn't have a pen so I wanted to leave my passport there as if I forgot it, and then head out in a way that she focusses on me and not my seat, but a based black man told me I forgot my passport and I got cock blocked. She gave me bed eyes when I walked out.
That's it for my day. Maybe tomorrow my life will fall apart, maybe not.
How was your day, Bernd?
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There's been multiple crimes announced on 4chan and 8chan, I think it's fair to assume that in order to be protected by Cloudflare a company needs to abide by national laws to some extent; no terrorism, no CP, no nonsense.
Which is to say, if an attack did happen, 4chan might be banned from the Netherlands, losing revenue and receiving law suits.
There's been jokey threats from 4chan about attacks on Dutch soil before and their identities were leaked to the police. I tried to preempt that. If there is no evidence and 4chan doesn't forward any information, then I am probably safe since the police won't investigate a non-existent threat. If they did forward it, I might get a slap on the wrist or if they don't like my face a few weeks in jail.
Fucking IHK hat behauptet ich sei unentschuldigt nicht zur praktischen Prüfung erschienen. Ich war an meinem Platz mit meinr Prüfungsnummer für beide Tage.
Ich war überpünktlicht und habe für jede scheiß unterschrieben.
Jetzt behaupten Neu-Deutschen Raubritter ich wäre garnich dagwesen und haben mich durch die Prüfung rasslen lassen.
So eine unfassbare Inkompetnez!!!
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Ich habe keine Ausbilder
das war über eine Umschlung
habe keine Kontakt zu denen und Betrieb habe ich jetzt auch keinen
Ich habe bis einen Monat nach Bekanntgebung der Ergebnisse Zeit Widerspruch oder Klage zu machen
Ich habe den Brief heute erhalten und auf dem Brief selbst steht das die Bekanntgebung am 27.01 ertsen war
was bullshit ist weil die Schriftliche war schon davor bekannt und die Praktische ist jetzt bekannt
some people placed stickers like this one on the streets and in the public transport
who could those people be?
Maybe it's zoomers who fell for the NNN meme, who knows.
When I was a teen I coomed multiple times every day and it didn't stop me from getting a wife.
Maybe these anticoom people are just trying to cope with being incels by telling themselves that they are like that because they coomed too much in past.
zoomer internet fren said, that one of the reasons he wants to leave Ukraine to wect ofc because he wants to see tidy and fancy Apple and Microsoft ad banners on the streets
I have improved my tinder skills and profile so much that I can more or less consistently get a date every weekend. So far, this has lead to one second date with kissenings, but no third date or sex. I wonder how long it will take to achieve that or if it will stop to work before I get that far.
One annoying thing, or something I don't yet know how to deal with perfectly, is the issue of getting a second date after the first one. You aren't supposed to ask right away, so I wait for a day or two, but sometimes grilles take a day or two to text back and probably sometimes don't really know if they want to or not. So it often gets dangerously close to the next weekend without me having clarity about whether there will be a second date or if I should ask a new girl out.
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I'm not saying I'm a master seducer, just that I improved my social skills to get to this point.
I know Bernds give bad advice most of the time, I'm mainly here to share.
Yeah I know. I mean often times it's just that you meet in person and figure out you don't have the right chemistry. That's impossible to tell without meeting irl and you can't force it. So there can't be a 100% success rate anyway.
First dates are usually just going for a walk outside and talking because of corona. It never goes really badly, but one time the gril was really boring and I didn't want to meet her again. Sometimes it's just mediocre and I'd be willing to fug them if that's their only goal. Two or three times it was really good from my perspective, but the girl didn't want to go further...
Also my main focus is not just getting benin in bagina. My main interest is physical intimacy, but I can't just have that with anyone. There needs to be a frenly connection at least, even if I'm not looking for marriage.
Yes, women have hundreds of choices while most men need to fish for crumbs. I have a profile that is performing above average, but it still is hard.
But I have met two amazing girls there already, one who was an amazing fwb for about a year and another one who is now just a good friend.
And talking to women irl is impossible because of the pandemic, maybe you missed it. Bars and basically all other places for socializing are closed. In the supermarket everyone wears a mask and wants to gtfo as quickly as possible. At the park everyone keeps their distance and doesn't want to interact with strangers.
my coworker, 27 y.o. female, once, while being drunk, said,
that she is a meme expert, because she knows all the meme pages on instagram,
and also that she identifies herself as a zoomer
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>females having a meltdown when getting criticised
it's so annoying, my girl is also like that.
If I say something bad about something she did or does, she will literally cry because she doesn't understand that I'm not trying to say that SHE is bad.
At least she never even said something bad to me or what I do, so no double standarts here - but the average female can always criticise you but when she gets criticised the world ends.
I fucking H A T E it.