Bernd
2025-05-15 20:05:14 ⋅ 4d
No. 341232
an entire week of schizophrenic revelations about life & no 1 to share it with
Bernd
2025-05-19 19:04:47 ⋅ 8h
No. 341435
>>341431
>something they want
There was a time I gave things to people who didn’t deserve it. I had to pretend to smile because I did not want to lose someone dear to me. Wanting to cut ties with him, was seen as rude of me as if I was a bad guy for having such thoughts. I had gotten better with him, but I think about how different things would be if I did leave the few people I hang with.
>want. You'll find a lot there are people with weird hobbies but they are instead spoken of as something "charming" instead of creepy.
My friends all laugh at me for being a mod on krautchan. I find it funny too, but considering I love taking care of this place It hurts me a little bit when the only thing they see this place as a porn site despite me telling them it not or it’s more then that. Nothing too bad came form this dynamic, but there was this one time when I told some chaps of mine when /HS/ was getting removed that I was getting death threads everyday, they felt sorry for me an then I told them “on krautchan” and they went “oh, just ban them” thats how low people think of KC.
On this topic of friends with KC, Im tired of my friends making egy jokes, like hitler, minors, animals etc. I almost want to say “ITS NOT AS FUNNY WHEN YOU SEE IT!!!” but I can’t. I don’t want them to see the things on KC, because to do that I would need to exist in the first place. I just end up fake laughing because it’s not as big as a deal as it sounds.
>I don't think it's quite your affinity for the countryhumans itself that makes you a "loser"
What are you talking about, that’s what makes me a winner
Bernd
2025-05-19 21:18:22 ⋅ 5h
No. 341438
>>341435
That's a bit dismissive, suddenly stopping caring about death threats just because it's on a site you moderate. If anything there's a lot more responsibility in taking care of an entire website.
If these people don't see your struggles, do you have anyone who does?
blogposting.
It is impossible to chase what you have never seen. Being deprived of the basic truths is so insiduous, your brain starts twisting reality into something it is not. So, your own life becomes unexplainable and foreign, and you - a stranger to it.
But how do we find that which we do not know is missing?
I find verbalizing our life seems to bring a lot of clarity, your body's pain seems to speak a lot of truth and, finally, fresh experience is always good. Whatever keeps you from being alone with your warped mind.
Bernd
2025-05-20 02:19:58 ⋅ 50m
No. 341439
>>341438
>responsibility in taking care of an entire website.
Whoa hold on, don’t give me too much credit, BO is the real hero. I could never be as cool or likable as BO. Kek what’s funny is when people report messages, they say “Tex or hey Texas” it always puts a smile on my face, when it’s not reporting someone too bad.
>do you have anyone who does?
No, I don’t, I am alone in this battle. I do not deserve recognition for what I do, nor do I want it. To have that I would no longer be noble in my service.
>alone with your warped mind
That is a completely different story I don’t want to get in with on KC. It’s bad man, I probably a schizo. As the voice and thoughts dance in my head.
Bernd
2025-05-20 02:21:57 ⋅ 48m
No. 341440
>>341438
>It is impossible to chase what you have never seen. Being deprived of the basic truths is so insiduous, your brain starts twisting reality into something it is not. So, your own life becomes unexplainable and foreign, and you - a stranger to it.
I was going to dismiss this section because I thought it was wrong, but after reading it a few more times I have a better idea, can I interest you in Polandball?
