Check second pic in other layouts I don't have these fat white stripes.
Tomorrow I'll go on another date.
I don't know how many I went on this year, but roughly one per week. If it doesn't go well, it will be the last one for a while, though. (I uninstalled Tinder and Bumble. I didn't get many interesting matches anymore and it just felt cringe to have a carefully curated profile trying to appeal to someone and everyone who sees it is trash anyway.)
I have a good feeling about this, however. Nerdy polyamorous girl I already talked about Tolkien and Warhammer with.
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Do you really believe in these tests?
Like, I also had to do ans test once and it had multiple fields, in most I scored 120-130, in numbers 130+ and german language knowledge I was only slightly better than average.
I find this hard to believe.
I know that I am smarter than the average but I don't feel like some Einstein at all, more like 5 points above average at max.
I also know many languages including latin but I'm doing ans Ausbildung for Fachinformatiker lemao.
I was sitting in downtown, minding my own, when a rogue homosexual approached me. He firstly apologized regarding his friend's attempts to say hello to me, then in a very submissive body language that showed he had took great effort to talk to me, asked me if I wanted to hang out shortly after explaining I'm a very attractive man he's been noticing in town for quite some time.
I granted him my thanks and told him a good no, but there still dwells an uneasiness in me about the duo.
First, the older homosexual approached me in this fine library to discuss his avarice and if I would be interested in partaking in a session after hours. I told him no as you already knew but this occurred several months ago. Since then I've caught the culprit sneaking around the library as I've either been shitposting or reading.
Now I do question their motives. Clearly they want to bugger but it goes deeper than that and I fear what other filth they'll get up to as I'm mindlessly enjoying my time off.
I also bested my previous 100 cheese stack in Tetris by twenty seconds, making my record a clean 08:04:00, which is warming after the endless practice and my inability to t spin.
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Reminds me of an encounter I had a couple years ago here, downtown.
I was waiting for ans gorl's to go on date, and I was wearing beige shorts, leather belt, olive green short sleeve shirt, and brown suede shoes and hat (well, hat is imitation, only shoes are real suede). Additional info: it was during summer so I also had RayBan sunglasses (the round model), was very tanned (I look refugee tier during summer), and short-ish haircut (I have puffy wavy hair).
She was delayed due to extra assignments at her uni, so I had half an hour time to wait. No problem, I bought me an icecream and sit myself under the statue at the main square.
Then one high schooler who looked nervous approached me after about 5 mins of him also looking like he's waiting for someone. He greeted me in English (okay?), so I talked in English back. Turns out he thought I was a tourist (told me I look Australian, I mean I do shitpost like one, joj).
So he was asking whom I'm waiting, and I was at first avoiding it. Then I noticed, he probably thinks I'm out cruising for booty (well, I was, but I had my target set already).
As soon as I mentioned I'm waiting for a gorl to show up, he dropped all interest and soon left. Guess he was disappointed that I wasn't interested in plundering his butthole.
Although the thread is still available in the catalog I couldn't reply to it since "thread sunk too deep". Sad and also why?
I attached the other thread text-only and for better understanding (mostly the outfit cleavage episode) the pictured version for the Bernds who are new to my blog.
Hier wir gehen:
So even though I've seen her for months now we've never talked about sexuality, because it doesn't play a role in my life other than masturbating sometimes, I don't deem it important, haven't brought it up and she never asked.
So last time I was talking about my dull, sober life I don't really enjoy (see the other thread about drug consumption) and gave thought about "why not start with substance x y z again in a controlled and sensible way?" and then she interrupted me, starting with "my I ask you a really intimate question?" I said sure, if I don't like the question I will just not answer.
Then she went on with "what role does sexuality play in your life?" and I was like "uhm? I don't see anyone or anything like that. So it doesn't really" (she knows that I live a hermit life) and then she continued with "what about masturbation? Do you masturbate?" And I said yeah, sure sometimes. But why do you ask?
While saying that I noticed how I got a little bit aroused and felt a small sensation in my penis, expecting a bulge I looked into my crotch for a moment (just a small bulge, barely noticeable for me) and might have also moved my arms so that I protected my crotch from her lustful glances (I mostly look on the floor when talking, because her eye contact confuses me occasionally, so I don't actually know if she looked at my crotch. But she probably noticed my behavior)
She replied something like "for some people that's some kind of important source of intensity in their life" or something like that.
And then I said I have more important issues (than _trying_ to get laid right now). Would you recommend me installing tinder or what? (As if doing that is not another great way for possible increasing depressiveness, right?)
I might have reacted a little bit butthurt, I'm not even totally sure why.
I just saw the possibility that she will annoy me by recommending magic tricks a la "just have sex!" in the future. Acting like having sex is just installing tinder and having a vagina - with her female bias and perspective and such. So if she recognized my butthurtness she will refrain from doing that?
Did she violate my boundaries by asking about me masturbating? Is this the continuing slippery slope of sexual transgression and boundary violations I'm seeing of her (and probably hoping for, wishfully thinking)?
What's her plan? What's next?
Also: we started reading the book a few weeks ago and continue doing so. Every session we talk about the stuff we read, but just for some minutes, usually extending the 50 minute sessions for some more minutes. 2 or three sessions ago she told me she really likes talking with me about the book. I like it too.
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Do you consume drugs? Which ones? How often/regularly? Do you have an6 problem with consuming?
After the last few years of being polytoxic and about 15 years of cannabis usage (half of my life) I'm sober from THC for over a year. No amphetamines for almost one and a half year, no coke for about 6 months and I haven't drunk alcohol since beginning of January.
Nothing in my life got anyhow better due to being sober. It feels like I lost my identity and the little bit of fun I had doing these things in the end. On the one hand I didn't like my high life in the end, it wasnt really fun, just an expensive habit that made things...less boring.
On the other hand I'm not sure why I haven't relapsed and don't really feel like doing it even though it obviously wouldn't change anything. , I can't say becoming sober was worth it. I got sold a lie by professionals and a supposedly 'easy' way out to reach a fulfilling life.
How can normies cope and bear their dull, sober life? Why do I think that everything those people strife for in life is just mindless, dull entertainment I can't be bothered with.
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The Dance of Zalongo refers to the mass suicide of women from Souli and their children during an invasion of Ottoman troops on December 16, 1803. The event is commemorated in Greece in the context of the Greek War of Independence. A number of 60 women were trapped near the village of Zalongo in Epirus, modern Greece, then Ottoman Empire and decided to turn towards the cliff's edge and die with their infants and children rather to submit to the Ottoman troops chasing them. According to tradition they did this one after the other while dancing and singing.
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