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GermanyBernd2022-10-16 23:34:17 · 4yNo. 233587reply
Another sleepless night of thinking about whether Bernd should just die.
"I can always just die if things don't work out" used to be my motivation to try my best the last years amd I achieved so many things but it seems like none of this mattered.
 
I am still empty inside, nobody except for my family truly cares about me (and even they have their own vision of what my happiness is supposed to look like...)
 
My body is broken and it keeps getting worse, I am kinda recalculating wether I should keep fighting or not.
 
 
 
If I don't, just dying is boring.
Since I have nothing to lose I could pull of something, like, blowing something up or take someone with me who deserves it.
 
 
What would Bernd do?
GermanyBernd2022-10-16 23:40:45 · 4yNo. 233589reply
Just wait it out, it's what all other people are doing too
DenmarkBernd2022-10-17 00:01:26 · 4yNo. 233596reply
>What would Bernd do?
nothing
FinlandBernd2022-10-17 00:18:22 · 4yNo. 233600reply
After the rain, the sun will shine.
AustraliaBernd2022-10-17 01:21:30 · 4yNo. 233611reply
Do you know what I do when I'm feeling down? I try to distract those negative thoughts by doing something that makes me joyful, such as hanging out with friends or playing some computer games, etc.
And if you don't have any friends, maybe talking with someone who relates to you can make you feel less left out. Sometimes other people's happiness can make you feel good about yourself as well.
Try giving happiness, and you shall receive contentment too.
UkraineBernd2022-10-17 01:51:11 · 4yNo. 233618reply
coffee increases optimism
FinlandBernd2022-10-17 03:28:56 · 4yNo. 233643reply
pick up some stimulating new interest
 
caffeine typically leads to increased anxiety because it blocks the effect of adenosine in your brain
UkraineBernd2022-10-17 05:43:12 · 4yNo. 233647reply
i said about coffee, not about caffeine
AustraliaBernd2022-10-17 07:28:52 · 4yNo. 233655reply
But… All coffee contains caffeine.
PolandBernd2022-10-17 08:40:51 · 4yNo. 233660reply
wouldn't your mom be sad if you died? that's the only reason I'm not dead yet
UkraineBernd2022-10-17 10:02:12 · 4yNo. 233671reply
sometimes i pray long to get back to some day of my past, like to live my life again since that day but with current memory, -- memories take me back to those days, if i do not like some of that my past, then i pray instantly for even earlier day to return into
SwedenBernd2022-10-17 10:15:32 · 4yNo. 233674reply
UkraineBernd2022-10-17 13:18:58 · 4yNo. 233724reply
IranBernd2022-10-17 23:41:51 · 4yNo. 233907reply
Same
The only reason I don't kill myself is coping by thinking "well, it could have been worse"
 
I cannot see myself aging gracefully, I'm just pathetically dragging myself through the days and one day, I will just end it
GermanyBernd2022-10-17 23:53:52 · 4yNo. 233910reply
i needed gf
 
what does this mean òwó
PolandBernd2022-10-18 10:10:28 · 4yNo. 233990reply
you know what this means
SwitzerlandBernd2022-10-18 10:18:40 · 4yNo. 233993reply
>What would Bernd do?
Distract myself by consooming content
SwedenBernd2022-10-18 14:53:15 · 4yNo. 234070reply
become the gf
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