Sames

 

This weekend I built a crossbow from a little tree I removed from our garden.

 

The video is not the final version, the bolts now have weights at the front so they fly in a straight line and the crossbow itself has a lot more power now.

is that a lockdown problem?

normally I can find excuse to force myself around other people

with lockdown I cannot

 

such cases

Yes. My only source of meeting women has always been the orchestra since I have light Berndism. Also, women there are usually of "good quality", haha.

 

I play the violin since I am 6 or so.

Do you go to shower afterwards

Play something for us!

 

Also I feel lonely too, although I have 2 matches on tinder that don't look too bad but I don't know what to write, I feel like such a mess that has nothing to offer, although I have a job and even two or three frens, but I have never had a gf and I'm far north of 30 and my guitar playing never seems to get decent because I just don't have a song in my soul, so wtf can I do, pls hlp thx

Do not shoot the tree pls :_;

What?

sames

i just feel i'm getting rusty doing nothing

I am also alone.

Sorry. I just did it once because I couldn't stop myself. After it I said sorry to my cherry tree several times and hugged it.

 

Hm, I might.

I don't really have a lot of self confidence on the violine because there are so many pros, but I definitely can play.

 

Glad there are so many Bernds feeling the same as me.

 

 

Once this lockdown ends I WILL go and change my life. I will make more friends irl and get a gf. No matter what. I'm so sick of myself just sitting in my room studying, shitposting, and playing games.

Next door my brother is sleeping with his gf right now, while I am writing this.

I'm 23, looking average or even better, upper middle class.

 

What is holding me back is Berndism and a visual impairment. Sometimes my eyes do some weird little moves, and I can't look people in the eyes because of it because I was always afraid of them noticing it.

 

My plan is to go to orchestras and maybe even some choirs and there I will hopefully meet some girls at my age that grew up with similar settis:

- religious/traditional family

- not rich, but wealthy

- 100% germanic 14/88 family

- say scheiße -> get soap in mouth jk

 

There are actually a lot of them, I used to be friends with many of them while I went to the orchestra when I was a teen.

Too bad I was always too shy to talk to them more than needed. Then I went to Japan, didn't touch my violin for a long time, became shit at it and started to hate on classical music like an edgy teenager and all my contacts were lost once I returned home.

 

 

I spent the lockdown since June 2020 in an internet relationship with a girl who also suffers from Berndism. I actually had feelings for her because at some point it felt like she was just a female copy of me.

 

However, recently I started to think that if she was german too, she probably wouldn't even have become friends with me.

If I am wrong about this then I can never look in her eyes again (for even thinking about it) and if I am not, then this has to end as well, obviously.

 

I have always made fun of people who were in internet relationships and now I learned the lesson myself, like the fool that I am.

 

 

Whew... What an essay.

Sleep well, Bernds.

 

You can always share some banter with us bernd. We're always here

You will stay in your room

You will enjoy immigrants flooding your country

You will eat the bugs

You will own nothing

And you will enjoy it

I was trying to make a holocaust yoge in response to your "arbreit macht frei" comment

Tried to make some art.

 

Last time I touched a painting brush was probably in elementary school.

 

What do Bernds think?

 

Pic 2 is the 2nd try, but I like the first one more.

At first paint an Apple 🍏

Come on, Deutschlandbernd bro, this can count as modern art!

that's right, g*rman women are fucking disgusting creatures

more like colour by numbers tier. But keep up your nice hobby.

what makes you think that?

Because she is very poor (westslav) and I am rather successful. Easily within the top 5-10% of the german society in future once I work.

 

Berndism has kept me away from women and I have never felt the emotion of "love" before.

There I was never sure if what I felt really was love, and I always had the sorrow that she is probably just seeing at an escape tool to what she thinks is paradise life.

 

If these complex caused thoughts are wrong, then I have no right to talk to her ever again because I would be so much lower on a human level compared to her for even thinking about this possibility, and if they are true then obviously I wouldn't ever want to be with her.

 

 

 

Anyway, this morning I touched a painting brush for the first time since elementary school.

My brother pressed and dried a hemp leaf last year and when he was about to put it in a frame on a white paper, I asked him why don't try to paint something on the background.

 

We experimented a lot and ended up sprinkling red, yellow and blue watercolour on a sheet and then sluring it into wave-like patterns with a big, watered brush.

 

 

Please name a price that this could be sold for at a modern art auction - I am very curious about your guesses.

 

Pic 1 is trial 1, Pic 2 is the final result.

 

Why is this place so full of autism?

Will you be an astronaut? A doctor?

I have a lot of private connections and I'm good at IT, later this year I will start working at a great company where my father already works, everything is already settled.

 

My post wasn't smth like these internet people bragging about their "muh 140IQ" on reddit or YouTube comments.

 

I am full of insecurities and I am inexperienced in a lot of things in life, I omly explained my situation.

So you start to work and will earn 3.440Euros/netto/month right away? That's the amount to be in the top 10% in Germany

Today I will do a BBQ together with a bassist and a drummer, we will eat, jam and smoke weed until tomorrow.

The bass player just bought pic3 related and we will try it out together.

 

I post this because oj my search for coals, I found a bag of grilling briquets in my garage, which seems to be from Finland.

I wonder who carried it all the way down to south Germany? Maybe my brother?

 

I realised that having a good smoke once or twice a week really helps me to go through these times without losing motivation to be productive from loneliness and boredom.

 

Yesterday I finally finished coding an app for guitar training, which I wanted to have finished in January already.

I wanted to buy a vaporizer as a present, report on that one after you try it.

10/10

 

very clean high

Definitely worth its money if you smoke often and don't want to poison your lungs too much.

How long does a gram last you?

3 days if I smoke a lot.

I have a very low tolerance.

Pretty good. I'm aware there's the capability to reuse the weed and form it into edibles.

what a dumbass policy tbh, well over 99% of imageboarders have posted on 4chan

This man is stoned and I can tell.