hmm.
it helps to have someone teach you who makes the learning experience fun.
For example, this one time, my highschool calculus teacher locked his door and had the students wait outside. When he let us in, all of the tables, chairs, and books were spread on the floor. In the middle of the room there was a blanket and a lump. He started freaking out and said "Oh no what happened?" He lifted the blanket from the lump and gasped as he unveiled a decrepit cabbage patch kid doll. He puts a thermometer into the doll and reads out a temperature.
And basically, the entire lesson surrounded the "murder" of this doll, and how we could solve differential equations to determine the time of "death".
I remembered a shit ton about Newton's law of cooling after that.
So idk, find an eccentric math nerd and befriend him. Or watch people like Flammable Maths to experience mathematical shitposts.