>Was it awkward? Did you regret meeting her after 15 minutes of communication?
It wasn't one on one. It was nice, but it was always with her bf. I met her first on a festival, where she was with her Bernd bf and then they broke up and a while later she got into a relationship with a Bernd I knew and I visited them sometime ago.
>Is changing your behaviour or views to more conventional is an option?
No, I've seen too much shit and have quite a negative world view and I'm also a druggie. There is no turning back now. I don't want any children, too.
>Talked for 2 hours and had a little bit of drinks. Not sure if I want to meet her again. She is cute and smart and talks things and interesting, I guess ordinary Bernd would die for such a woman, but I don't feel love toward her. Pussy is almost in my hand, but that could be just wasted time.
Why do you expect to feel love on a first date? I never felt love towards anyone, but would have liked to see quite a few girls more times than I have. How would it be wasted time? When would it be not wasted?
>Why?
I don't meet any new persons anymore. My social life is pretty much dead and during the last year I was 95% of the time alone in my apartment.