just quit funding a prostitute for god's sake
The things i done just for her, i spent my money on her, my time, my energy, i started doing things just to impress her, but i never lifted a single finger for me, at that point i wasn't even being myself, and that, im most of my time wanking to women, chatting with women ai, thinking about ways to impress women, planning life projects just to attract women, but i'm never thinking about me, i was doing things for others, never for me
That's why we should embrace ascetism, so we dont get distracted from our real purposes and goals by the carnal desires of matting with women, the world is yours if youre happy by your own
>but i'm never thinking about me, i was doing things for others, never for me
I fucked it up in a similar fashion pleasing my mother's "requests" (e.g. orders) to enroll inna uni and such.
I never really thought dodging her "GO TO UNI" (it's free in Russia) stuff and using uni as an excuse to attend a jerb/a proper job/an internship