Yes, being near her is the problem. Sadly she's in the office often and she's the closest colleague to me (also emotionally). I already know her "weaknesses", I'm also not attracted to her character, that's why I called it a struggle against the flesh. My male mind says she's pretty and sexing her would be cool, fight against your own desires, don't be a slave to the flesh. That's my motto. How did you overcome your feels?

On one hand you are majorly attracted to your colleague and want to have sex with her, on the with other hand you have sex.

I knew I'm gonna fuck up the joke. Never mind, I just wanted to write something about OP having sex with his hand.

have you ever thought of stand up comedian career?

Jokes about fucking up jokes exists. So why not.

let me know if there will be your own stand up concert, i will buy the ticket