don't want to, the more i think of it the more i come to conclusion im a socially disabled one, having no citizenship, no proper school graduation because of that, i couldn't study in university even because of that (though i wanted to, i wanted to be a translator), moreover keeps the topic of citizenship forbidden in our household, because she says we should cross the ukranian border for that and we can't do so, not sure either because of money or because police can take us illegal refugees
she tried to get a russian citizenship for herself but got fucked up by the judge in court, she has ukranian passport though i don't get (despite the financial problem) why she was procrastinating in citizenship question, because now it has the huge consequences affecting me and my future
plus... there's shit ton of other problems, like saving money for flat, overworking (on the job not requiring the official applying), had to be cheap for everything, can't get the new jeans even
idk man, im only 18 but had to eat this amount of shit so far, i want to die because there's no possible future, im just born and raised as mom's personal atm