good thing that you got cured of wanking and pervin'
i don't if it's normal or not
A day ago i just kissed with a girl for the first time (it was a rental girlfriend and honestly i didn't thought her service would include this stuff, it caught me off guard)
The thing is that after that i just had an emotional boost, i stopped perving and staring to random girls, i don't want to fap anymore, the voice in my head that constantly scolded me and reminded me how much of a loser i am dissapeared, my self-esteem and confidence growth, i started to care about my hygiene, some hateful ideas vanished from my head and i started to have a more mature mindset, i want to be a role model for my little brothers (my mum and dad are divorced), in short i became a more responsible individual
Is this normal for you? It really surprised so i done research about the effects of kissing for the first time but i haven't found nothing relevant
Not sure about fap, i dont think its bad.
But the rest you decided to change is good.
First kiss doesn't have such effect on everyone i think it was just a trigger for you.
It helped you see yourself in perspective.
I remember having similar thoughs after breakups.
Anyway ideally you should just improve without any triggers.
It's not the kiss, it's the fact that you finally had a nice, validating social interaction for the first time in a while. Sometimes it takes is someone else treating you like a human being until you start actually believing you are one.
The other Bernd is right that you'll be back to your old self without it, but really it just means you're leading an unhealthy lifestyle rather than being inherently defective.
