Things could be worse. You could be paraplegic instead of a victim of a japanese cia Rikken Yōseikai cold war psyops like the imageboard culture.

Surely chatting with schizos for more than a decade and half, helped you in some way in your life?

Surely you didn't fall for a contemporary waste of time worse than watching TV or posting on tiktok?

I think that some of them have a balance between real world stuff and online stuff whereas I have completely lost track of meaningful experiences that could happen in real life instead of on a computer. I can't even manage to maintain relationships with people anymore because they bore me for the most part. It's as if when it isn't on an imageboard where people type stuff down looking at a monitor which glows and is interactive, then I have no interest towards it.

I've learned jack shit except some conversational pieces that are irrelevant in the real world as far as I have experienced this far. I like to look back on the time I spent on imageboards and see it as something that helped me become who I am today through assburger talks about different things but what ended up happening instead was me losing my entire personality and becoming socially inept and retarded because I valued the opinions of international assburgers instead of people in the real world. Now I struggle to try and integrate my assburgers knowledge I have gathered over the course of years with my real life. I should just have went outside and played soccer with normal people, things wouldn't have been so bad if I had.

I have the same dilemma as you and I wish I could offer helpful words, but I have none.

Some days I think that imageboards and specially kc are very comfy, it's a true internet community, something rare to find, it's nice to read and write in it after a tiresome day, and ask for eletronics reviews or movie recommendations.

In another sense I fully agree with you, it's a huge waste of time, pointless, it's worse than using social media, because in social media at least you are interacting with real people who are somewhat close to you.

I only know that my most productive periods in life where when I didn't use imageboards; and every time there is a world crisis or world happening I read the most retarded and wrong opinions on imageboards.

It's the worst time-sink there is because one of the main aspects about posting on imageboards is the fact that it's anonymous and regardless of the effort you put into it, you will never manage to benefit from it in any way whatsoever because you're among strangers that don't give two shits about anyone except for themselves. There is no reputation to build, there are no people to impress, nobody is going to ever look at some of the things you might have said one time and think to themselves that the person might be onto something and give you a form of respect within a community that could end up translating into real-world benefits.

There is no community, it's just a bunch of random people that decided to pool together in some irrelevant site to talk about retarded things and waste their time. I'm not sure if it's completely fair to say that imageboards were the sole reason for things ending up as they did, but it surely did contribute towards it. I've always been awkward around girls and similar, so it isn't the main reason, but if I didn't find a group of people I identified with online then I could have been a different person than I am today, maybe for the better.

paraplegia is easily cured through olfactory cell implantation, it's literally nothing

Go to the gym 3 times a week, train seriously with the best plan you can come up with, eat well, sleep well. Don't expect any particular results, just train, eat and sleep.

gym wont make your brain to produce oxytocin, but imageboards will. I think first good step would be to try to be completely lonely, like even without friend simulators including gaming and internet. This probably sounds crazy but internet makes you turbosocial even if you dont leave your room for weeks. So you need to get really lonely to get rehab from oxytocin (hormone that makes you happy from social interactions), this can be actually very difficult because bernds usually dont have any interests besides pc. Then i dont know, you should find irl friends but they are all boring, this is why im still here. Maybe loving gf would change it.

 

I dont believe in "you are here forever" because look at 4chan, it is getting slow, so people at some point just leave it.

Life is overrated anyway op.

I believe we can no longer enjoy anything because at this age, we should have our own family with children and not waste resources on hobbies.

I'm starting to think that I just want everything that life can offer but there's no way to have it all. You take choices, you do things, they end up closing doors for some things to happen, I think I'm growing up and starting to think about some of the things life could offer in a way where I'm feeling like I've wasted opportunities. I don't know if it's part of growing up and getting older, but it feels like I am incomplete in a way.

Mennesker vil aldrig rigtig være tilfredse med osv., så gør hvad som helst, der får dig til at sætte kryds, formoder jeg, det hele vil være forbi til sidst alligevel. Held og lykke med hvad du end gør.

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