This question has been bothering me for a while now, even before you asked me this. I really have no idea, there used to be things I did before where I would feel entertained, and god forbid, a little happy, but it seems as if these days I can't feel happy anymore in the way that I used to back then. I really don't know what I want to do, if I knew then I wouldn't even be posting here and have been happily entertained with something else.