do you think you wouldn't feel this way if you had friends and a girlfriend?

You’re a kein who recently lost his virginity

I don't know, sometimes I feel like the only thing wrong is me

she is still not my gf though we are fwbs at this point tbqh

Having fwb makes you a disgusting kein

let him live his life, you meanie

I feel bad about betraying my bernd brothers, I really do, but you can't expect me to live 26 years on my own and still keep on being alone after having had the opportunity to be with someone. I've spent so long on my own because I didn't socialize or go outside, I always thought that gf was impossible for me and that I would be alone for the rest of my life. I can't be a true bernd if I'm turning down women, that would be called a volcel and a volcel is not an incel, so basically what I'm trying to say here is that it's her fault for wanting something with me, but as an incel I cannot turn down the opportunity to be with girls because that would go against being an incel.

I feel less of a bernd now, but she makes me feel good and I cannot take this for granted given the amount of time I've spent alone. I appreciate every single moment with her because I think of how much suffering I endured in my life, and also how many other bernds endure by being alone. It has changed the way I look at things, I don't think there will ever be a point where I will take not being alone for granted because of how bernds suffer being on their own.

Eventually you will get tired of women

I've quite literally just begun, after spending years imagining gf and the things I could do with gf I don't think there will ever be a point in time where I would want to be alone anymore. Being alone sucks, just the fact that I have someone to talk to and who actually listens to what I have to say is something amazing to me.

Everything else is just an added bonus, sex, kissing, touching, it all makes me feel human rather than a socially retarded robot. That being said, though, it didn't come very naturally at first, I tried distancing myself and I at times still feel like I need to distance myself for a bit, but now that I've crossed the line of having had sex there is an expectation of me being more physically intimate than there were before. Sometimes it can feel like I need to put effort into it, but it still feels good when I do.

It hasn't been exactly how I imagined it during all of those years, I feel very empty on the inside and the little boy who hungered for affection after all of these years has died inside of me. I'm still trying, though, but I don't think it will ever be quite as good as I spent so long picturing in my head. Maybe it's too late now, and I've come to embrace loneliness, but I still refuse to be alone for any longer. There's no reason why I should suffer, Bernd, I haven't done anything wrong so I shouldn't punish myself for just existing, which is what I have done for a long time prior.

I gave up on women long ago, they will never love you if you're sub 8

 

Sure, you can get a 30+ "wanna settle down now" hag as a wife if you insist on breeding, but forget being loved for whoever you are and other hollywood bullshit

i will die alone and thats a good thing

Post a selfie

why would i?

why wouldn't you? do it, do it now

game over then...