I am any half good at is known by nobody but myself. I have no friends (virgen) and am schizoid. My austims forces me to be alone, and I can't do what I want because I lack the skills, I am not talented or a polymath, even graphic design and video editing is years of experience I don't have.
This bothers me, and I plateued my potential, nothings good enough and I am running out of time...