Tomorrow I'll go on another date.
I don't know how many I went on this year, but roughly one per week. If it doesn't go well, it will be the last one for a while, though. (I uninstalled Tinder and Bumble. I didn't get many interesting matches anymore and it just felt cringe to have a carefully curated profile trying to appeal to someone and everyone who sees it is trash anyway.)
I have a good feeling about this, however. Nerdy polyamorous girl I already talked about Tolkien and Warhammer with.
I'm probably leaving this city next year and will be away for a few weeks this year, so a normal stable relationship might be problematic anyway. And 2019-2020 I had a fuckbuddy who had such a relationship. Basically she had a bf but would visit me every few weeks for an epic fucksession. Was pretty ebin.
The main issue is her personality, though. I'm not Bernd in the sense that I'm an unattractive loser, but I'm Bernd because my personality is incompatible with most people. I can get dates without too much problems, but most girls are so annoying to me that I don't want to pursue them further.
I'm much older and the average person has very little to teach me. They are very boring, only concerned with their job, maybe some normie status symbols or hobbies. I'd rather spend my time with more interesting people or those I could learn something from, but these are quite rare, even more so on dating apps.
if you're expecting others to entertain you with their knowledge, it shows you're either insecure to share your own out of fear of being wrong or not listened to or rejected. i highly recommend you start being more assertive with your dispersal of verbal diarrhea.
when I talk to women, i always try to crack a joke with my knowledge. that way I make them remember what they learn.
I don't mean to brag and I'm certainly not an übermensch, in fact I'm a failure in many areas. However I tested above 130 IQ in several tests, am university educated and know several languages. I read Latin literature for fun.
I'm not saying this to illustrate how I am better than the average normie, but to show why I'm incompatible with them. I don't care about football or going on vacation in Mallorca.
Do you really believe in these tests?
Like, I also had to do ans test once and it had multiple fields, in most I scored 120-130, in numbers 130+ and german language knowledge I was only slightly better than average.
I find this hard to believe.
I know that I am smarter than the average but I don't feel like some Einstein at all, more like 5 points above average at max.
I also know many languages including latin but I'm doing ans Ausbildung for Fachinformatiker lemao.