Polls like the one I mentioned show you are minority, and the majority is not affected by anti-Russian media. Majority doesn't hate their country. If you think else, it's only out of your ignorance.
When you watch YouTube and see only anti-Russian videos, it doesn't mean all videos on YouTube are anti-Russian. It only means that YouTube shows you only anti-Russian videos because that's what you are after, and you'll spend more time on YouTube this way. It's how algorithms of YouTube, or social networks like Twitter work.
Discarding my opinion by saying I am a "bot" is a disgusting trick that tells a lot about you. I know you were taught to imply everyone who posts about Russia and doesn't say Russia is bad is a "bot", so you wouldn't be contaminated with non-Russophobic points of view. That's a weak position though, and it won't do anything good for you.